December 2011
1 post
These days the one thing I'm searching for is...
And as days go by and years pass it’s getting harder and harder to find.
October 2011
1 post
1 tag
Better.
I want to be a better version of myself. To be the person who I’m supposed to be. The ultimate me. And sometimes I think the only way to accomplish this is if I somehow shut the world out. Like I want to cocoon myself in order to accomplish my goals. No job, no friends, no family, or anything to misguide me. Not really push people away like in a negative way, but more like finding my own...
September 2011
1 post
I am just a ghost. A ghost of a person that you...
February 2011
2 posts
Punching my way through paper coffins
only to find myself encased in an iron tomb; making dents in all the walls.
If I could only catch my breath for one fucking...
Then I wouldn’t have to be ashamed of what I have become. A tired and cold individual who is nervously clawing at the cliffs trying to get a grip. To feel crumbling stone at my finger tips. Not caring about kicking up the harsh dust that seeps into my lungs that are past my lips. Cause this his how it is, this is it.
October 2010
1 post
This is how I feel all the time,
I’m always shaking on the inside!
August 2010
1 post
No matter how many kind words I say, things just...
April 2010
1 post
Poem pt 1 (unedited rough draft)
Saying these words like breathing air through crushed lungs Again with words, left on the ledge Tilting toward something that I cannot speak Something sharp that must be kept under my tongue Bring back that priceless time I spend, I loan To you from me, from us These things, these places, these situations Even the starry night skies you claimed are not your own
And the ocean waves wash over your...
March 2010
1 post
Birth from ruin
I’ve really ruined myself this time. This ruin could be a sign of change that needs to occur to become stronger, after all a phoenix does rise from the ashes of its own death. These single words hit me with such heavy weight, I can barely plan my next move, but what weighs the most is silence like a sequoia that has fallen on my chest. All I can do is carry this weight while looking for a...
November 2009
2 posts
"Forever" is such an odd word
forever describes something that us human beings can never have. For everything you know, everything we have built shall crumble in our hands one day. And even the stars and suns themselves are destined to burn out and fade away within time. I just pray I’m not around to see that dark day. But I don’t think life should be about how quickly you go but how bright you burn during our time...
I think I'm gonna write more hopeful stuff,...
October 2009
2 posts
I've fallen for you
I fell deep into a pit that you were digging to make my grave
These written words, when spoken by you, they made...
not one single chance
September 2009
18 posts
This feeling of woe my heart did take
and oh did it ache
oh did it ache
Ripping every selfish page out of a book that was...
I've lost it...
the something that I thought was my essence, the feeling of wandering, the feeling of searching for something I would never find, its gone…and it makes things so much more bearable
loneliness is what I lost
I have no idea what words I want to speak or...
Sometimes I just wanna rip out my heart and show it to you because thats all I have to say
I see those black clouds
but I also see the light that shines through
that is something I learned from you
As this feeling fades
I am left wondering if it’ll ever come back. do I want it to come back?
These questions will only be answered with time…. the spark has left and I didn’t even notice, but this will always be a constant memory to never lose hope to never give up, to stay true and to stand my ground, this fragile ground that I walk on so carefully, but within this time frame I know these legs will...
Maybe I could shed you and live without this...
but I can’t shed whats at my very core
Every breath you take for him is another heartbeat...
And I’ll search till the end of the hourglass to...
If I never see you again
please just tell me
does this pain ever end
Every word said is a waste
Everything done is in bad taste
I’m sick of every problem you made me face
Nobody did it better
Nobody did it Worse
This is me
My life
My plague
My curse
Please don't just fall for me
Please allow me to sweep you off your feet
And What I Wanna Know Is...
Could this be real
What we have
Please make me feel
Just like the past
She'll never be happy with out me
(you’re wrong, you’re wrong)
Don’t let his sorrow become your own
Right when you spoke those words I knew you didn't...
And I'll hold my breath till you come home
Theres nothing worse than being alone
So I’ll sing this tune hoping that
You’ll be back soon
Every word you say is another knife in my throat
Shatterd pieces, a broken heart, I'm trying my...